i didn’t know but its whispers have crept into my mind and has gripped my heart. it doesn’t control my life, but its voice is just loud enough. i never thought that i’d have to struggle against it. its a fear. a fear that i’ll struggle like my parents struggle today. that a small income is a testament to the fact that i’m lazy and undisciplined. that everyone’s gonna see and see that i amount to nothing.
as graduation is coming nearer and the real world is becoming realer, this is something i discovered in the recesses of my mind. i used to think i was immune to greed but turns out i’m not and its no surprise and if you struggle with it too then you shouldn’t be surprised either
Another reason to draw nearer to God. i’m excited to see how God changes my heart